ねく-ちんはどこですか?

2009-04-19T00:24:00.002+08:00

I have really become an Uverworld fan hahahas..
I have a near full collection of their discograhpy in my laptop
and I've even placed a stamp of them on my blog :P love love!
hahahahas..
I rarely have fangirlisms and i think i have a few hahahas..
like on the manga ヂ.グレマン,D.Gray Man (like Allen Walker and Lavi :P)
Like ぬらりんひょんの孫,Nurarihyon no mago (like Nura Rikuo in his youkai form :P)

i like Uverworld because their music is awesome, even though i don't really know what their lyrics are about but someday i will definiately know when my Japanese becomes fluent heh heh..

2009-03-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

When someone's says a bad thing about something.
Something that's precious to you.
Would you defend it? No matter the blasphemy?

i did not had that group treasured and spoke rubbish and nonsense that caused a great bruise in life at M. secondary school and soured a relationship with a group f people, which thay had already disliked me in the first place.

I did not had anything i wanted to protect then, except perhaps myself.
Now, its is a whole different story.
I want to protect the relationship that i have with my God. (:

- just had a negative memory flash..

2009-03-23T02:38:00.002+08:00

Just a thought to share.

Sometimes, when all seems blissful, you get this pang of invisibility.
Will that make you think that you are not of value, not mattering to anyone?

It ain't about you mattering to another person but mattering to the greatest person who redeemed you from the things that was done that was not intended in the first place.

People can say you are useless but you are of value to God.
Even if you ain't a Jesus Freak. (:

- Pastor Sy Rogers weekend was a awesome blast and indeed opened up to a great awesome perspectives.

I am GLAD Jesus found me (:

2009-03-21T03:04:00.002+08:00

I have managed to change my Blog's skin.
Its kind of based on my Twitter color scheme hahas..

I also added twitter on side too ;) - so that you can follow what i am doing hahas
i also updated my stamps - basically are things and fictional people that i really like..

Its so exciting! Later that will be a zone meeting with Pastor and also Sy Rogers is going to share during service! Its power-packed man! One Problem though, i am not well ): - poo!!

2009-03-19T10:28:00.002+08:00

Been away and busy with school and now its over its good.(not that anyone miss me now right? *thinking about that inactive chatboard at the side..)

Like the feeling of after being under water for a long time and now breathing is possible hahas..

Strange enough, during that period no sicky cloud came to get me sick till now.. poo!
But i am very excited now as i get to do more in my creative ministries more than ever now!! -woot! hahas

blogskin to be updated soon - couldn't find the theme that was being worked on D: and worse yet forgot the skin name.. ):

2008-12-29T01:44:00.003+08:00

New year's coming! Bye 2008 it was fun and everything passed by very quickly.

Having that "here we go again" feeling.. hahas..
but the coming year will be different! here's why:

+ turning 21(oh no! i am getting old! *ponders*)
+ Graduating from NYP! <- its definitely going to happen and i am going to do well!
+ Getting on into University life! (i will get there de! 4D4D4D - 4th dimension)
+ Getting a macbook/macbook pro for 21st birthday (its 10x cheaper than a car! :P)
+ growing to more levels in the spirit and character! (Faith to faith! Glory to glory!)
+ many more to which i do not know but God does hahas!

This coming year i want to be more faithful and accountable! AMEN!
Mac-chan! Here i come!

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Laptop's harddisk might crash at anytime..
pity.. all the trouble began when i started 4D-ing for a macbook pro
hahas but i think i might get it sooner :D

4D4D4D4D!!!

but not at the expense of my projects that is..

2008-12-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

My Computer kaputed TWICE this week... haiz..
a very wrong time to die again.

i want my MAC now!!! >_<

2008-12-05T01:27:00.002+08:00

WOoHoO!!! Computer's ALIVE!!!

Thanks to Munir's Laptop recovery CDs!!
Back to my awesome work that i have been doing and Projects!!

"friend, you deserve something nice from me mans!"

yea i think the things on top says it all..

Its December now..
2009's almost at my doorstep. hahahas..
I want to start off the next year with a positive and growing attitude.
Graduation's almost on hand.. University awaits but there's papers to fill and send hahas..
Tightening things in my life - busy busy busy!!

Things are like that when you are working your way to your vision.

"to be a Grower!" onwards -ho!

2008-12-01T01:59:00.002+08:00

make fellowship!
Genuinely Care!
see the visions in them~!

I want to grow to help others grow in the ministries!

2008-11-26T21:44:00.002+08:00

Thought about you guys again, that was when i saw both of them at Cheers.

Felt that i have drifted from you guys to my main purpose now.. thought about my relationships with you all. Will i forget you? will you forget me? will the evidence that we knew be gone?

Perhaps.

Maybe.

Uncertainty just looms over these possibility.

But now is not the time for me to think about it.

I pray i never will, i got things i need to grow up to.

University here i come!

2008-11-24T16:19:00.003+08:00

Me laptop crashed.. on thursday, 20/11/08.

It could be its last day on this earth.

I would like a macbook pro, as stated on my wishlist. camera/mp3 phone got striked off cos i got an iPhone from dear lovely mumsy. It an extremely lovely gadget! *loves her iPhone*

i shall not be worried about the money of my mac cos i know God is a good provider, mac ish at my doorstep le keep 4D-ing!!! i can't wait to get a macbook pro.

2008-11-03T10:50:00.005+08:00

My Laptop is in a state of no operating system.

It was not exactly fixed in the end.
tried it with recovery CDs but now it needs a window CD.

i think if i got a new one it qould have been solved by now and i would not be worried about my projects. :(

not blaming anyone though.
If God brings you the test, He will bring you through the test!
haiz!! i gotta do my best!

2008-11-03T10:50:00.004+08:00

2008-11-03T10:50:00.003+08:00

The Next 2 months will be a month of tightness and utmost proper time mangament.There's so many things to do over at Church and also at School.

Homeworks, assignments and projects are all coming and not forgetting the things in church!

WHEEE!!! Yes i am stressed!

Especially this week that's going to stsrt with a BANG with Nick Vujicic coming to our Church followed by Pastor Kong! Not forgetting also Asia Conference and Subsequent Weekend Big Days! Wow! This whole 2 months are sure packed to the brim man! Its going to be awesome!

Stress levels high for me espcially being in my final year and managing 4 different ministries at the same time. Yes, there is alot of things for me but i shall prevail through God who strengthens me. I need to tap more on God's Strength as well as keep my Spirit self in-shape, spend time with God and be faithful to all the things that has been tasked to me.

Herbrews 11:30
By faith the walls of Jericho fell down after they were encircled for seven
days.

2008-10-24T20:49:00.003+08:00

In the midst of all the work that i am happily rushed through,
I've seem to have forgotten them.
and things that i have learnt while being with them.

i thought about you guys when i was doing a video that needed lots of detailed checkings which reminded me of the days i had with you and suddenly realized that i had forgotten you while i was happily busying school and church work and felt that i had not sinned.

It felt like i did not went through that whole phase at all.
After coming back out, i felt that i picked up where i had left off before going on the exciting Journey with you. It felt comforting to be in God's Service again. I learnt alot about myself and grown to cherish my things that i have been doing before the Journey.

I leave the Magnificos Dinre time in God's hands and grow towards my destiny in God's will.
Thank you for the times and the things, may God let us cross paths again.

I'm going back to my Faith-filled, God-loving life. -Amen.

2008-10-23T20:56:00.003+08:00

Whee.. into the 3rd week of school le..

There's many things for me to to like many many 3D modeling things and also
the things i do in church.

Actually, i kinda of like this momentum, doing design and multimedia for God! - yays! love love!

I'm tired but however, i think its good as my capacity and time management is going to stretch real good. Its essenstial since gorwth is good!

Dreams gets you going.
Be it just wanting to try something new or going to your next level in life.
Keep going no matter how tough it is.
Don't be discouraged by set backs, they are areas in your life you need to change if you wish to get to your destination.

Gotta love growth.. Towards a better and christ-like me! :D

2008-10-03T22:12:00.007+08:00

Went out with dear Mumsy today. I don't really get precious time like this, but now since i do i'll try my best to make it as enjoyable for Mumsy.

Today, went to buy my lecture notes cause school's starting soon. Also, got my hair cut! haha.. Then went out to watch a movie and lunch with Mumsy.

First we both went to Crystal Jade Palace Restaurant for lunch cause Mumsy wanted Xiao Long Bao. I footed the bill due to the work for the past month. How filial i am! :P

Then went over to Lido Shaw Centre. Noticed at a corner of the building, there is a very cozy looking cafe called Canelé Pâtisserie Chocolaterie. Heard of it before when Sis bought a vanilla meringue for me. How sweet of her, though it is unusual haha.. And saw that they were having macaroons on sale! Yumm! I LOVE MACAROONS!

Then went to watch a movie, a chinese one by the way, called Painted Skin. Interesting storyline. I like the way it ended too. A sweet story. Should watch if you like Qi Yuwu or Donnie Yen.Mumsy loves his shows haha.

Anyway, I so love macaroons that here are some of the lovely, limited edition macaroons! With the following awesome flavours!

CafeCaramelCharlotteOrangeBlossomSesameVioletSpecialYuzu

They've included a macaroon catalog for this year's seasons too! haha Very Nice! :)

2008-09-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

This week is the last week before school starts up the project rushing, Tutorial completing, lecture-attending craze.

I'm very excited as i ended up in the specialization that i've been aiming since the day i started studying my course, Multimedia and Infocomm Technology.

The 3 years of my life in the Course was awesome! I felt that It was God's blessing as i found God while i was studying in this course haha. After which came my great poly life. With good CCA and Academic records. I'm glad i was blessed with this course when i was desperately pleading for a course to enter when i failed after taking my O'levels.

I'm glad i am living on the blessing that God has given. May i not take them for granted or/and make them more important than God. Of which i nearly did with one of them.

2008-09-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

There are times when you know you're trying your best to get along with a group of people that you feel that you don't seem to get along.

Somehow you get the impression that you're being treated differently just because you're different.

You should be who you want to be and not what others of this world thinks you should be.

So what if you're a Crazy Radical Chirstian, the part of you that they don't accept.
Then so be it. You don't have to bend to their will. Doesn't mean you need to spend most of your time with them? Can't you just loosen the string that you have in your heart? RELAX! Don't meet them anymore doesn't equal to end of the world right? Go when you can go, Help when you can help, they are no longer the ery top priority that you have now. Don't let their affairs affect your walk with God. Your priority now lies with Spirituality. Growth. Resolve to stay on the narrow road.

Keep growing okay? Don't be nice to yourself but be nice to God and others. :)

2008-09-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

Nothing is impossible after you've seen what these people can do.

click here to see impossibility become extinct

2008-09-15T09:26:00.007+08:00

Have you ever felt that you're in cold rain?

Where you try your best to compose a gthering that's got a rare opportunity at hand and also a good way to let your circle of friends to know you better? Having sent out invitations to them with the deadline for response in 4days, hoping that at least there are a few or maybe even 1 or 2 would show interest in coming, having faith that at least they will read that invitation AND at least tell you , with a basic loving courtesy, that they may not be able to make it at least 2-3 days before? And in the end, you find at only at the last minute do most of them tell you that they are unable to, making you feel that they shld have checked their emails earlier.. or even if you received emails from them like fowarded emails. you get the impression that they didn't want to reply until last moment ( basically, you feel that they are trying to find excuses of not wanting to go). Worse yet, some don't even reply you, so you totally don't know whether it is a yes or no,(sure, they don't mind letting you hang in the air leaving you to wonder forever if there ever will be an answer from them). The good thing about all this is at at least 2 showed intrerest, however, due to unforseen circumstances was not able to come.

Won't you feel disappointed?

When you heard in right from their mouths that you and your group of friends are precious to them and yet they can treat you this way? Whereas, when last minute outings comes up and is organised by someone else, they will go for it? Then seeing with that example, you try to do one like that to with that naive faith that they too would come and support you by participating, yet you don't get any?

You feel that you shouldn't be part of this group of people right from the beginning. You feel that you got cheated, you're being lied to. :(

I could have done so much more with God.. but i chose to be with you but i felt cheated in the end.

Sheer Disappointment.

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My God is a mercyful and full of grace.
If He can forgive me no matter how many times i've failed,
Why can't i forgive you too?

2008-09-10T12:51:00.002+08:00

Its lunch break now and since i brought food from home.
i think i will just blog about some stuff.

i realised that i began to blog again after a super inactive year. I think this will be good so that i can maintain my English and also having the iniative to blog about interesting things.

i think its nice to blog and go blog-hopping around. Read about other people's life.
Even my blog's skin has been changed. now all that's left is to build my blog skin providing site.
the things has been done but there doesn't seem to have much time for drafting a skin for the site. haha.. i will spend some time thinking, sourcing, photoshopping and dreamweavering it :)

God is Good -Amen!

2008-09-10T07:04:00.003+08:00

Had a Zone Barbecue yesterday.
The event was great really! There was a lot of people new and the ones i know.
Successful event conducted by Qi wei and Fu Rong i must say.
Met many new friends too like Yoshi and Qiling. Met up with old friends like Kailyn and Ben.
Saw Jasno from OGL too ( the Phat Nite 4 logistics ic? ). Found out that he's actually one of the X-St.Gabrielites' group people. Awesome! Indeed the world is really small haha.. great to have met up with him and talk about the OGLs stuff again.

Brought my Workie pals too for the barbecue. haha.. I bet they met alot of new friends and had great food! Fiona seemed like a chief over there, kept cooking over at the barbecue pit haha..she must really love cooking.. Stefanie had enjoying herself too! Eating and drinking haha! Glad that both enjoyed themselves.

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Clubroom sickness is just a matter of the mind.. Thou i've lost a home, it doesn't mean i will be lost forever.. I will keep moving and growing. At least i still have homes to go to..
&Comforted indeed..

2008-09-08T01:12:00.003+08:00

Time flys.. its already September

I still remember this month last year, 29 people embarked on a journey together trying to bring a Club to new heights. We called ourselves, Magnificos Dinre.

That's a really special name for all of us. standing out as the Magnificent Excos who are Extraordinary.

Now, We've all stepped down, letting the next batch to carve out their piece into the Club's history.

I didn't really had the time togther with Magnificos Dinare. Though i truly wished to and i know i always will be able to.

So goodbye to a love of my life, Magnificos Dinre. Treasuring the times i had with you. Always..

だいすきでしょね。マグニピコス　ヂナレ。
love y'all Magnificos Dinare.

I believe i'm starting to have lesser time with them due to the many things that are going to happen in their lives as well as mine. However, i will try to save pockets of my precious time for my dear MDs.

Sermon summary:
Opportunities and moments are heavenly-allowed, God-engineered. Its up to your Giftings, the ability to see the need, your convictions and last but not least, your faith to make it happen.

2008-07-22T12:49:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile hahaha..

Yesterday was my birthday! Thank you all for your wonderful wishes and present and cake!

Here's a list of things i got:

Jason Mraz - We Sing We Dance We Steal Things (from SIT Club * love love*)
Cool Necklace (from the Decore Ministry *love love*)

i believe there's more coming haha will update the pictures too!

I also want to take this time to really honor 2 people:

RichaRd!
RRR-RUbY!

haha they are awesome la! one flooded my inbox and one wished me HB all over the place haha..
You Both rocks man! *HUGS*

i want change my blogskin too.. i think i will do it after my attchment ends.. its when i can REALLY slack and ROT in the SIT Club room while i see others slaving for Exams :X (oops.. sorryy loves)..

2008-06-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

(Dedicated to my dear brother Mr. T*)

Everyone's Weirdly different in some point of their life.

Even i don't really fully understand myself.
However, lately i've begining to gain some understanding recently
like myself, when i watch something that's kind of literal example, The Happening by M.Night.Shyamalan.

Its fine being the complication that you are, everyone's complicated.
You are great and amazing just being who you are. God loves you no matter what you are.

- Don't worry, Your secrets are safe with me
in fact, i don't care that you're weird cos i just wanna love you
with the love of God. As a friend, as a fellow groupmate, as a brother (in-surname) That's all that matters to me, brother T* ,that all that matters to me.

i just wanna let you know, though you're very much different from others i have known, you're definitely one of the most interesting friends i've got.

2008-06-01T23:29:00.002+08:00

Attachment start lo.. last week. Ahaha

The office is good..
Enviornment's good
People there good..
Overall very Good haha..

Thanks God for blessing me with a good
attachment company.
Where the place is easily accessible to church, school and home!

Glory goes to You! :D

2008-05-23T12:33:00.002+08:00

i like this song..
Sounds like a praise song for all those
poor guitar players.

Sounds like a faith song too haha!

Everybody hates my guitar sound
Don't know why they hate my guitar sound
Everybody hates my guitar sound
Wonder why they hate my guitar sound

But i know
That i'm doing for you
Everything is for you
There's no reason to change my world
And sell my soul
And i'm doing for you
Everything is for you
There's no reason to change my world
And sell my soul

I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna let it be myself and i

Wanna let you see
Wanna let you see
Wanna let you listen to my solo

2008-05-16T13:59:00.003+08:00

Here's a nice story:

A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, who stripped him of his clothing, wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead. Now by chance a certain priest came down that road. And when he saw him, he passed by on the other side. Likewise a Levite, when he arrived at the place, came and looked, and passed by on the other side. But a certain Samaritan, as he journeyed, came where he was. And when he saw him, he had compassion. So he went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine; and he set him on his own animal, brought him to an inn, and took care of him. On the next day, when he departed, he took out two denarii, gave them to the innkeeper, and said to him, ‘Take care of him; and whatever more you spend, when I come again, I will repay you.’ So which of these three do you think was neighbor to him who fell among the thieves?

He was not known in the bible.
wanna be like that too. :)

Dosen't matter what happened to you, i want to help.
I ain't irritating but just concerned.
Shunned and a little unappreciated

Love God, Love people, Love Life. :)

--- * * *
Decided to put some stamps on my blog hehe..
their from DeviantArt.com by the way.

2008-05-10T00:36:00.001+08:00

RED RAIN's coming to town!

24th to the 25th of MAY!
Catch them only at HoGc!

2008-05-06T10:00:00.004+08:00

I feel that i think different from what the Others think.

Reason being. I like to think like my pastors.
Despite being all that bad and stuff being branded onto youths
by Adults, My pastors still believe in the youth and look where we are
today? The one of the largest youth church in Singapore.

Its their undying and unconditional love that brought the youth's lives
together, that brought my life together.

I feel that the way i work is very different from Them.
Treating Juniors the way Adults would treat the youths.

I will not go to such ways.
I have faith in them if not how else are we going to
appoint out the next batch of leaders?

I don't suit the style of being mean and self preserving towards people who are younger and less authority than i. However, perhaps i lack the things my church leaders have. I should do some copying and pasting of them on me.

2008-04-15T09:58:00.003+08:00

Today's the second day of school
for some. FYP Dread still continues..
How pathetic isn't it?

Only 5 weeks left before
some of us shipped of to various companies
like Cisco Systems for work for another 3months.

It ain't nice at all to do FYP and Attachment first.
Its like you slack first and toil later.

However, it is Good for God as its more possible for
me to go about doing the business of God in His House.
Pray that Thursdays I may end my classes early so that
i would be able to serve God in Decor Ministry. - 花儿，花儿，我爱你！

May the projects that i receive in my Next Semester not be too tedious
but I pray for a better time management. :)

2008-04-12T01:01:00.005+08:00

Whatever happened. Lets it happen.
Lets get a move on in life.
So what if we all made that mistake
that was not suppose to be there?

WE GOTTA STAND UP AGAIN!!!
COME Y'ALL! LET'S MAKE WHAT
WE HAVE LEFT THE BEST TIME!
IT ONLY 4 MONTHS LEFT BEFORE WE
DO NOT HAVE ANY EVENTS TO ORGANIZE
AND WE WOULD BE ALL SEPARATED FOR
ATTACHMENT AND FINAL YEAR PROJECT!

If it hurts when things like that happen,
It means it is some thing that is important to you.

love you EXCOs and lets not fight and exclude others anymore.

***

This have thought me something.
I need to understand things deeper and know people
deeper. Not just anyhow wah- wah superficially know people.
Gotta start praying fasting for Holy Spirit's guidence!

2008-04-11T01:02:00.002+08:00

We all Though its just going to go away
or have hope that it is still solvable.

Look at what all our neglecting ignorance have done
We shot down the person who cared for us the most,
made him lose faith in his leadership and has gone tired of
this endless weight that has been increasing on his shoulders
(He ain't Jesus ya know).

Ain't blaming but i know i am at fault too. All of us are.
Our own disputes, differences, misunderstandings have all gone in
to the once "ONE HEART ONE MIND ONE SOUL" family.
Now, its a piece of crap.

Like i said in some of my previous posts(find'em yourself pls!),
i feel that i don't belong.

Well, maybe its because i ain't giving all i've got
due to the stress level that i have coping with my ministries, Studies, Club activities
and my spiritual life.

Maybe, i ain't giving my best shot at not giving up on them no matte how much they
disappoint me

MAYBE..... It's gotta do with me. How i think.
How i always misinterpret everyone's actions and behaviors.
How i always feel when i am on my own within the group.
How emotionally selfish i am!!!!

However, it did taught me something..
I want to Learn more about people. To talk to people
to know more about their inner life. BE THEIR FRIEND.

Heart-to-hearts are times when you know you're about to grow.
Cause it when you know your errors and change for the better.
A process of growing to another level. Be it God or People.

2008-04-02T09:34:00.002+08:00

You Always have a way with people.

I would like to ask Him, who lives above the heavens, to grant me a gift like yours.

*
Sometimes we don't tend to notice,
but when we do, i might be too late.
However, its about give and take.
You don't give and expect to be given,
neither do you take and expect others to take when you don't give.

*
Days are getting tough as Orientation draws near
Let's do our best with all that we've got
together we can make the difference to the world that
we are living in with our lives overlapping one another's

がんばってね！Magnificos Dinré!

2008-03-27T17:18:00.003+08:00

Its been long since i last blogged..
Since way before exams that's alot of months since the last entry.

Life's been UP and DOWN.

Many things happened like not being able to get into the study path first
and also always having mixed feelings between Clud and Chuche *.

It has been months already and that mixed feelings are still there.
sometimes feeling that "i am part of this family too no matter what i am and
where i am from" and sometimes plagued with the feeling of loneliness and Emotions.
I think i am being childish always having these kind of feelings as i believe these feelings were
developed through a sad past and Godlessness.

Thank the Lord for this phrase of anti-insecurity complex.

"I may be alone but i am definitely not lonely".

Even if i am alone on my own in Clud*, i don't mind.. its just gonna be a year and then later on,
only God knows what will happen. In the mean time i should just make the best out of it and to keep in mind that these kinds don't last long. Its only the relationships in Chuche that lasts because we still be able to see each other in haven still.

Life now although has gotten complicated due to the fact that i am juggling 2-4 things at one go. However, it is fun, considering its been like every 0830 - 1800 is work at school and weekends Church. I feel like a working young adult already. *lols*

Life's good. when you make the best out of it with God.

Will Blog again soon and change this skin even though i am running out of ideas. *haha*

2008-02-09T03:28:00.000+08:00

Heys! Happy Chinese New Year!

haha New Skin.. Lazy to put designing to it...
Sian leh.. No ideas sia..

tired lately also so i never blog..
oh wells.. :)

2008-01-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

This will be the last time I'm ever got to
work with Ms LALA..

She's unreasonable and always
putting up last minute excuses and
doing silly bimbotic things
doesn't like it when people give her good
advise or can't do

Its a little intolerable and
She's obnoxious most of time too..
Oh how i wish my heart can grow bigger like Jesus' heart.
Gotta love her sia..
but who says i can't dislike her stupid attitude towards life...

but i gotta give to her though.. Very brave and positive despite being
widely hated and despised..

2007-12-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

Pardon the harsh words for this is a rant..

This Month is a very busy month!
So many ministries are on like
Cafe
Decor
Not to forget SIT Club..
i getting very stressed here!!
Can Cut me some slack?
Why isit that so many people are
trying to get me for different programs?
It a little to much!
I need to drop something but
i can't drop all any of them..
i feel stuck!
Two different commitments
want me on the same day and at different
times that clash!

How sia?
I NEED CAPACITY!!!!!
GOD GIMME CAPACITY!!!!!

This Christmas's got to be the busiest Christmas for me..
Until i got no time to do or buy Christmas presents at all.
Everything just gets in the way of other things like tomorrow.
Everybody just loves me too much until they want me to be in
everything..
Why can't there be 50hours in a day? Why must 24hours?
It would be nice if there were 50hours a day to spend for every
commitment that i have.. Especially, on Wednesdays like tomorrow..

I'm starting to dislike the things that i do....
I WANT TO CRY!!!!!
I AM NOT OKAY!!!!!
HELP!!!!! STRESSED!!!!!!

2007-12-16T01:39:00.000+08:00

If i get too close..
Others get burned..
if i don't stop myself,
others will have that sense of hate
others can see it while i'm blind to it..

Just don't get to close to me..
its better if you don't be my good friends..
'cause i don't know what i might do to you..
i cherish you therefore i will not let myself hurt you
in anyway anymore..

Just don't get close for you sakes and my sakes
its better if we're just acquaintances rather than good friends
Even if we are friends is okay just don't get close
Don't be my close friend or you'll get hurt..

don't get close 'kay? Jesus is the only one that can cause
He knows the things that i have unconsciously inflicted upon
the friends i had of the past.. and you don't so don't get close..

I love you and don't want you hurt..

2007-12-05T10:35:00.000+08:00

'tis the seasion for capacity
fa lalalalaaalalalalaa
filled with many things to do
fa lalalalaalalalaa
Treasurer and Stock IC
fa lalalalalaaalalala
Club logistics and studies
fa lalalalaalalalalaaa

I can do all things through Chirst who strengthens me
I am not stressed amen! Just got no time for meself :D

2007-11-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

This weekend was powerful!

Leaders see the burden in others and let it break their hearts and decides that something must be done and does it.

Leaders have that fighting spirit to keep going on and not stopping.
Always having that token victory.

Was the messages for weekend.

To E-zone :-
From today onwards, E2's going on a new adventure!
[somewhat like a comic series going on a new arc haha]
Although most of my friends have gone to E3, E5 and Zone G..
[Missin' you all! Its fun since this past 10months and we've all grown a lot since then.
Also, Gina though you and Dinnie have gone over to Zone G, i will never forget all things
you have taught me and helped me. I'm gonna grow to be just like you! Just you wait i am going to catch up to you! Thanks for always supporting me and encouraging me and sowing life into me!]
如果旧的不去，新的不来。（if old don't go, new don't come).
E2's future is going to be exciting -Amen!
We've all risen to another level. and as Pastors say "new levels, new devils!"
There's more higher responsibilities for me now and a higher role for me to play in the CG.
Life's getting more and more colorful for me!
Also, I would like to give a warm welcome to Eli! Cos she's just transfered from E3!
plus, she's going to be in E2 along with Vannessa Chan, Xinjie, and Gabriel!
Restructuring is so fun and change is good! Lets get out of our comfort zone and start growing!
I AM A LEADER!!

To EXCOs :-
The Messages above are dedicated to you!
[Esp. to the 4 Toppies "you know who you are!"]
We are leaders representing the students studying in the School of Info. Technology!
We may face things like oppression and biased treatments,
We may be looked done upon by the very people that has decided to give the opportunity to us,
No matter what let's keep up that fighting spirit that we have in us
and never stop!
Jia You!!!
Let's have that spirit of never accepting the fact that we are being looked down upon!
Let's have that "you may have won this battle but you will never win the war" kind of attitude!
Lets have that "never-say-die" passion and give our best for XmasQuerade and Camp Euphoric!
EXCOs! EXCOs! Ou~La~La~!!

2007-11-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

I dunno
( lemme see now..)
but somehow i seemed
to have made a person in the
clubroom have negative thoughts
about me..

Well, i think i the one at fault 吧？
(lets see hmm...)
maybe i am not be doing my job right
as a logistic in XQ 吧?
maybe i am almost broke her mouse that her friend
gave her 吧?

she just seems different from the
time when we were working together in BO..
less relax about my mistakes..
more disagreeing with the ideas that i have..
(even about the paperbag!)
咳..我该迮么办呢？

maybe she's just
stressed..
She's an IC of the event ね
of course she'll be stressed..
plus also got her projects just like me..
so だいじょうぶね?

2007-11-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

ROAR!!
I hate procrastination..
gets me no where!
All my projects are undone
and there's so much things to do..
zzz.. and also i don't find that i am
doing my job as a logistic in the event i am in..
not only that.. i find that i am not
doing my job as a committee member in the event..
just like BandzOut that time..
Stupid le always feeling that why...
Whyever woulsd the seniors vote me for Logistic anyway..
i am not doing my job at all..

its just the same old thing everytime..
in BO also like that.. now XQ also like that..
maybe if i don't talk nobody will think i am a mute..
so alrights.. I am shutting up now.. :x

who would like to listen to my ideas and suggestions anyway..
they are stupid and a waste of time.

2007-10-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

This Song Goes out to that
EMO Kia who keeps doing that in the
corner of the clubroom..

- Jason Mraz's Song for a friend

Well your magic he said but don't let it all go to your head
Cause I bet if you all had it all figured out then you'd never get out of bed
No doubt of all the things that I've read what he wrote me
Is now sounding like the man I was hoping to be
I keep keeping it real cause it keeps getting easier

He's the reason that I'm laughing
Even if there's no one else
He said you've got to love yourself

He said you shouldn't mumble when you speak
But keep your tongue up in your cheek
And if you stumble onto something better
Remember that it's humble that you seek
And you've got all the skill you need; individuality
You've got something. They call it gumption.
They call it anything you want

Because when you play the fool now
You're only fooling everyone else
You're learning to love yourself.

(Yes you are)

There's no price to pay when you give what you take.
That's why it's easy to thank you.

Let's say take a break from our day and get back to the old garage.
Becuase Life's too short anyway but at least it' better than average.
As long as you got me and I got you, you know we got a lot to go around
I'll be your friend you're other brother
Another love to calm and comfort you.

And I'll keep reminding if it's the only thing I ever do.
I will always love you.

(It's you i love our love is true
it's you i love
it's you i love love love...)

Climb up over the top.
Survey the state of the soul.
You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.
Why not give it a shot?
Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up
Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside still rising.

Climb up over the top. Survey the state of the soul.
You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.
Why not give it a shot?
Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up
Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside still rising.
(It's you I love)

Climb up over the top.
Survey the state of the soul.
You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.
Why not give it a shot?
Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up
Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you.

come back to the way you are!
We miss you..

2007-10-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

They told me i am not allowed to quit..
no matter not valid the reason was..
it seems that this semester its going to get very
crammed and no rest for me..

So the only things that i really look forward to are
Sleeping and eating... TmT

i want some free time to slack!!!
Things on hand:
SIT Club
NyGen
Church
Studies..

Extraordinary student!
Shall stretch my capacity further!

*****

i want to serve in my church la
i also enjoy being part of the SIT Club family..
haiz... What should i do? どするんだね？TmT

2007-10-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

Mummy Got me a new Thumbie!
Meet my new Sony 2GB Micro Vault Thumbdrive!

Had to put it on to my stationary case and lots of keychains.
Also have to put out a message on the computers that i use in school
to remind myself to check my work station.
I have to be responsible for my things yes?

Salvaging my lanyard has also began.
Daniel agreed to help me to reprint the lost tags again with no charge.
Just need to find them so he can print it together with the
Sports Championship tags too.
"ありがとう！Daniel!"

Now all that's left is the Xtreme Venture's Tag which
there are no softcopy around so i got to scan one and photoshop it.. haiz..
私はばかですね。。TmT

2007-10-19T12:22:00.000+08:00

We lose things now and then..

like me i lost my Thumbdrive and precious lanyard on wednesday.

but never lose the thing the is the most precious to you.

But i will never lose my God. He is my Saviour and i will always love him.
Stick to Him no matterwhat. :)

2007-10-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

Its gone!!!
its never coming back le!!! :'(
My thumbdrive and my lovely Lanyard is gone!!!
I left it in the Lab and stupid little was so concerned about meeting ruby
at the clubroom that i forgot to take it!!!
我是个大笨蛋！！！
it can't be found forever and ever anymore!!!
All the lovely memories are gone...

W.W.J.D?
Help!!!
>_<

2007-10-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

Things sometimes may not go well
but there's always Jesus beside me..

I thank him for being there for me :)

2007-10-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

I think I don't know how to do my job right...
in the club...

I don't even click...
if things don't click how to work?
confirm will clash and everything go wrong de..

so how?
Resign loe..
So simple..
don't think the rest will find it funny anyway...
we don't click in the first place..

2007-10-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

Everytime i come into this room.
I see that you all are having fun.
Fun that's very similar to the people around me had.
Fun that i know i won't be included.

From that day i was being call upon to take the
position, my heart was a mess.
One part of it was so delighted that it almost could have jumped out of me
and praised God like no tomorrow.
Another part just wanted to reject that offer as it knew it was a cross road
Given by Him.
I am still confused.. I don't what to do now..
To continue in this road of which i have already taken afew steps
or should i walk back to that junction again and just literally head towards the
way which i knew God has laid for me.

I hate being the bad guy.
More so when the people around me in that club literally
don't understand an On Fire Christian's heart.

Should have rejected it in the begining.
I didn't really wanted that position in the first place.
Even prayed that they wouldn't chose me but chose my friends who dearly deserved it.

Would you be able to understand that person if he or she had a christian heart?

Probably you don't...

2007-10-01T10:46:00.000+08:00

last weekend was a good blast with God.
didn't felt so close before!
I want more!

***

You said Elisha was so hungry for You
that he followed Elijah even thou he told Elisha
that he will be taken by the whirlwind into heaven.
I am hungry for you God!
in Luke 9:57-62 You said:

57 Now it happened as they journeyed on the road, that someone said to Him, “Lord, I will follow You wherever You go.”
58 And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head.”
59 Then He said to another, “Follow Me.”
But he said, “Lord, let me first go and bury my father.”
60 Jesus said to him, “Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and preach the kingdom of God.”
61 And another also said, “Lord, I will follow You, but let me first go and bid them farewell who are at my house.”
62 But Jesus said to him, “No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.”

I will follow Lord!
even if it is going to cost me my leadsership in school
I will follow !
You are my God of my forever.

2007-09-25T01:20:00.000+08:00

Pyuuu~
Me tired..
Just went to a nice mooncake fest party at school.
Kindly organised by the S&W guys from S.I.T Club(ありがてょよ!).
We had nice dinner.
Celebrated Eeling's and Kenneth's birthday(Happy Birthday!).
Lit lanterns.
Munched on some yummy mooncake bought from Zhiyang's mooncake company.
It was enjoyable time.
Photos will be posted soon after i get pictures
from the photographers.

How i wished i had my own cam cam.

Pyuu.. me tired want to go ZZZ...

Miao..

2007-09-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

Today's Friday.
Pastors and leaders are coming home.
They went to Sweden for the Nordic Conference.
With them, is Pastor Joakim.
He is a sensational pastor.

31 August 2007.
It is the day when my seniors step down.
With them stepping down, came the next batch.
I am one of the next batch.
Strangely enough, I feel that i don't deserve it.
I feel that i deserve to do something else better.
Like serving God.
However, i believe i can do both.
If i ever need to choose only one,
i have already made my decision.
To Serve God.
As i love Him more and everything that i have done in and for the club was by the grace of God.
This is my pre-made decision.

19 September 2007.
My results came out.
I was a relief.
2 out of 3 of the subjects that i thought i would fail has got B+
whereas networking i got a C.
So that's good.
Passed with a GPA score of 3.219.
Good.
Haha.
Pray next semester will be smooth.
Must plan my time more for next semester.
Events and projects coming up.
Not forgetting Church work! :D
Yupz..

Miao~

2007-09-21T03:21:00.000+08:00

Hello!
This is my first entry in my new blog!haha
Lots of things happened during the times when
i am not updating and its kind of alot
and right now its late for me to type it all
down.
Perhaps i will do it tomorrow.

Miao~